On the First Day of Summer....

Today was an interesting day. I wouldn't say it was a great day, but, despite having another Ben health scare, having to wait in line for 30 minutes just to get my car washed, and burning my arm while making food, I can't say it was a bad day. Today was a good day, thanks to it being the first day of summer vacation :-)

It Has Arrived!

The 80s were a strange time for music videos.

I made it. I seriously can't believe I'm actually 100% done with my sophomore year of college. That even feels strange to type. I feel so liberated, like I can do what I want with no restrictions. I can go back to reading "A Clash of Kings" or play a video game without feeling any guilt. That's probably one of the greatest feelings in the world: when you have the time to do exactly what you want, and the ability to do so.

I'd say this was a really good school year. The fall was difficult, school-wise, thankfully. Experimental Psychology was a major bitch because of that project, and so was Social Science Statistics for the same reason. Medieval European History was so much fun with such a crazy professor, but I wish I had gotten an A in a course like that instead of a B :-/ Human Systems was also a drag, but I met some good people through there and somehow got an A. Lunches with Jessica and Ricky were amazingly fun, as well.

I feel like the spring, however, kicked fall's ass. I blame Jessica Cespedes for this. Spending almost entire Tuesdays with her for 4 months can drive a person insane, but we really got to be much better friends, and I'm so happy that she's in my life. Despite our constant vitriol, there's a rock solid base of friendship that exists between us. I don't think I'd have as much fun in my life if it wasn't for her. So thanks, Jessica. I'll always cherish our Alot of Fun Tuesdays at Juego de Jamba.

I can't forget my Einstein's friends either. Last year I really kind of avoided them, if only because I was afraid about how a few would react to me. This little bunch of sordid folks can be fun, weird, and hilarious. There's a lot of drama amongst them, but also just a lot of goodness. I'm really happy I decided to hang out with them, as I now have more friends than I imagine I would have otherwise. I have to say, though, eating at Einstein's makes me miss Ashley like nobody's business. Those were the best lunches I've ever had :-)

Now, to academic stuff. History and Systems of Psychology was such a chore, despite it being relatively easy. It just got VERY tedious, and that term paper drained me for the entire semester. Creative Writing let me actually write for the first time in I don't know how long, and led me to meet a really great person, as well as institute some holidays with her (#TwizzlerMonday and #JuniorMintWednesday for life!). Abnormal Psychology was a wake-up call about the field, but allowed me to fall back in love with psychology. The professor, though initially intimidating, is also the best professor I've ever had. After that was hang out time with Jessica, which opened me up to the works of Hayao Miyazaki, and I'm very grateful for that. Then we had Shakespeare Survey together, which was an emotionally turbulent time. Mood whiplashes of "this class is so fun" to "I hate this class" were common. Totaro was an amazing professor, though Jessica would probably say otherwise, since our professor apparently harbored a grudge against her. Thursdays were my Film class, which was both great and okay. I wish I had met more people in there, but it seemed that everybody already knew each other/were film snobs/douches. It seemed like I would thrive in this sort of environment, but it was not meant to be. However, it was still extremely interesting, and I'm so happy to have checked off taking a film class from my list of things to do.

I've come to learn a lot about myself this year and accept who I am. I can honestly say that I am happy and fulfilled, which IS the greatest feeling of all.

This summer WILL be amazing.

The Light Is In Sight

I've finished my Shakespeare paper. This is the big one, the hardest thing between me and summer break. Now it's done, and I've got a big grin on my face. I turn the physical copy in tomorrow, then I'll email my portfolio to my Creative Writing professor, and then I will be complete 100% done. I can't believe it, it's seemed to take so long to get here. I'm done :-D

Post on the school year that was tomorrow!

Why Do We Fear?

I blame Jessica Cespedes entirely for making me look at scary things on TVTropes. I briefly mentioned Slender Man yesterday and she just HAD to get me to explain all about it. Suddenly I feel this urge to satisfy my curiosity about fear, so I went and looked at some individual pages linked from the Creepy Pasta TVTropes page. Whenever I do this, I always convince myself that I'm not going to be scared because it was made up by people on the Internet... then I end up getting freaked out and paranoid for an hour :-/ Then I'm back to normal until the sun goes down and then I'm back at it. Sigh....

So, question. Why do we have this urge to be scared? What drives us to look at frightening things, even when we know better?

So Tired

I barely have the will to post. It has been a long ass day of my Abnormal Psych final, shenanigans with Jessica (including Ponyo!), acting (YAY!), and peer reviewing papers.

Don't you just enjoy these little snippets of my day? Big blog posts in the future, at least! Oh, and Jessica, this is probably the most hipster song you've ever heard. Just my guess.

One down....

At last, I have finished my final Monday of classes. I kind of want to wait to share my thoughts on the semester for Thursday, so, um... I've got nothing.

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everybody! Jesus is risen and we're all saved! Huzzahs all around!

I wonder what He would say about the world today. People are still warring over beliefs, there's still murder and mayhem, people are divided across economic and political lines. The world isn't a happy place.

I'm not necessarily a religious person anymore. Spiritual, yes, but religious, not so much. I think the Church has become too... biased. It's natural. Humans are the ones who have to lead it, and they're imperfect. Everybody has a motive or an opinion. I think some have been the wrong ones, and so I think the Church has lost its way a bit. Now don't get me wrong, I still love Jesus, I still think that the parables, the stories, they're all true. Jesus died for our sins and was resurrected. Salvation comes from being a good person and doing good things. It's just... until the Church can become more in line with my morals, I can't belong to it anymore.

I'm not anti-religion. I think Buddhism is the most naturally good religion in existence. I think all religions try to say the same truth, but humans get in the way and complicate things, saying that it's their way or the highway to Hell.

If you are a good person, you live a good life, and you love each other, then I think you live the Word and the way Jesus intended.

Happy Easter, everybody!